Ok, i know i'm using my blog as a diary and it may be silly to confide all this in complete strangers. But you know what? It feels easier. I mean, writing stuff in a diary gives you a certain degree fo comfort, but it doesn't feel like anyone has heard you or you can get advice back.
So now i get to the point of this:
My mum just cut my hair for me and i felt really happy and safe and she did this thing she used to do when i was little and i loved it. I felt free again.
Then i mentioned how sometimes i wish i was still a toddler and asked my mum if she felt the same.
I meant if she ever wished she was a toddler, but her answer surprised me. She said that she wished that my twin and I were toddlers all the time, because when we were toddlers we were happy and free and there was a glint in our eyes showing that we knew we were secure and loved.
Apparently when my dad left that glint disapeared. I'm not surprised. After my dad left i thought no one loved me for a while. But my mum sounded so sad and wistful talking about it.
She said that even though i was secure an dlove,d i still didn't loook like i knew it.
The truth is, sometimes i don't. But i know my mum loves me and this has just proved it for me.
I do have a loving family who have stuck by me through thick and thin. I have suhc an amazing family.
So i would like to say now, mum, bobby, beco, You are the best family that anyone could ever wish for and i will always love you.
I used nicknames for my sisters by the way. I didn't think thye'd want their names online.
Sunday, 30 November 2008
NaNoWriMo winner 2008!
After working very hard all day, i am pleased to announce that i have just had my novel word count validated on teh YWP NaNoWriMo Website, and i have been officially declared a Winner!#
It was hard but thanks to Write Or Die, with gives a negative stimulus to keep you writing, i managed it! 50,000 words in 30 days!
I also have a new pen-pal. Its wierd, because we met on a pen pal website. My twin started e-mailing her and her best friend, and then i started e-mailing her too! It really is a small world.
WE had to walk to church this morning because the car is being mended. Its going to take all week so i'll probably lose a lot of weight walking to guides, to school, home, to drama, to piano, to singing.
My legs hurt already!
We got teh bus back though. We've lost our Oyster cards and she had to get us these temporary ones. It was quite weird.
I really like the book Twilight. If you're wondering how i went from buses to Twilight, here it is-after getting the Oyster cards, we went into the Odeon to see if we could book tickets for it yet. We're going with some friends in a group when school finishes. Twiligth comes out on the same day.
I can't wait til Christmas! I have had such a busy month and December will probably be no less busy. It will still be fun though. I plan o updating some of my fanfictions. I haven't done that in about a year so the few readers that i get will probably be annoyed.
Here is my winner icon thing from NaNoWriMo:
Bye for now everyone!
It was hard but thanks to Write Or Die, with gives a negative stimulus to keep you writing, i managed it! 50,000 words in 30 days!
I also have a new pen-pal. Its wierd, because we met on a pen pal website. My twin started e-mailing her and her best friend, and then i started e-mailing her too! It really is a small world.
WE had to walk to church this morning because the car is being mended. Its going to take all week so i'll probably lose a lot of weight walking to guides, to school, home, to drama, to piano, to singing.
My legs hurt already!
We got teh bus back though. We've lost our Oyster cards and she had to get us these temporary ones. It was quite weird.
I really like the book Twilight. If you're wondering how i went from buses to Twilight, here it is-after getting the Oyster cards, we went into the Odeon to see if we could book tickets for it yet. We're going with some friends in a group when school finishes. Twiligth comes out on the same day.
I can't wait til Christmas! I have had such a busy month and December will probably be no less busy. It will still be fun though. I plan o updating some of my fanfictions. I haven't done that in about a year so the few readers that i get will probably be annoyed.
YAY YAY YAY I WON!!!
Sorry, couldn't resist. I am so pleased! I didn't think i'd make it but i did! I have written it and now all i have to do is revise my novel. And edit it. A lot. So get rid of the "all i have to do is". It is going to be a lot of work. But i can't wait!
Here is my winner icon thing from NaNoWriMo:
Bye for now everyone!
Saturday, 29 November 2008
The thoughts of today
This is my blog, so, lets all talk about me! Hiya!
Only joking.Except that this is about my thoughts. I don't have anyone else's to share with you, sorry, I mean, i'm not telepathetic after all!
That's a quote from one of my favourite books, Generation Dead by Daneil Winters. One of the characters jokes that she has telepathic powers, but that they're more telepathetic than telepathic.
I finished that book today, but it was amzing! A great blog for other Generation Dead fans to visit is www.mysocalledundeath.com
It is another blog on here, sharing the same name as the blog of Tommy Williams, one of hte main characters.
On to other things, i am taking part in NaNoWriMo, which is National Novel Writing Month. The goal is to write 50,000 words in the month of November. Despite the fact that there is only one more day and i am about 10 days behind, I am going to succeed!
Hopefullly.
Then i will edit it, and rewrite it, and delete parts, and then when that is all done after about 2 years i will send query letters out to some publishers.
I'll probably end up talking about my day, my fave books, any movies or TV shows i've seen, all my obsessions and my progress on my own novel on here. I might even ask for help with homework!
Not that anyone is likely to actually read this. This blog, after all, is simply the ponderings of a teenage girl. A teenage girl who is on the Young Writer's Program for NaNoWriMo.
I don't know what else to say, except that sometimes i get really morbid. So don't worry if istart questioning death and all sorts of stuff one here, folks! I am (Hopefully) sane. Although i might be crazy, considering i think i can write 12,000 words in one day. Then again, my twin sister managed it, so why shouldn't i?
I really miss Macbeth. I starred in a school play of Macbeth last year, as Macbeth, and it was so amazing. I felt like i had done something i would be proud of forever. My Drama teacher was the first person to really belive in me, because despite the fact that I was younger than everyone else and i had only just joined the drama club, she beleived i could learn my lines and practise and do well.
Now my Drama Teacher, who's name i am not going to share, is ill and i miss her. She is reallly nice and she treats us all like adults. You can always trust her.
I am making her a Get Well Soon card. There are auditions for our next play, Romeo and Juliet, on Tuesday and i don't think i can do it without my teacher there to support me. She made me feel confident in myself last year. Now that she is ill i don't feel like i can act well at all. I am going to do my best though.
For my teahcer. I want her to be proud of me.
Only joking.Except that this is about my thoughts. I don't have anyone else's to share with you, sorry, I mean, i'm not telepathetic after all!
That's a quote from one of my favourite books, Generation Dead by Daneil Winters. One of the characters jokes that she has telepathic powers, but that they're more telepathetic than telepathic.
I finished that book today, but it was amzing! A great blog for other Generation Dead fans to visit is www.mysocalledundeath.com
It is another blog on here, sharing the same name as the blog of Tommy Williams, one of hte main characters.
On to other things, i am taking part in NaNoWriMo, which is National Novel Writing Month. The goal is to write 50,000 words in the month of November. Despite the fact that there is only one more day and i am about 10 days behind, I am going to succeed!
Hopefullly.
Then i will edit it, and rewrite it, and delete parts, and then when that is all done after about 2 years i will send query letters out to some publishers.
I'll probably end up talking about my day, my fave books, any movies or TV shows i've seen, all my obsessions and my progress on my own novel on here. I might even ask for help with homework!
Not that anyone is likely to actually read this. This blog, after all, is simply the ponderings of a teenage girl. A teenage girl who is on the Young Writer's Program for NaNoWriMo.
I don't know what else to say, except that sometimes i get really morbid. So don't worry if istart questioning death and all sorts of stuff one here, folks! I am (Hopefully) sane. Although i might be crazy, considering i think i can write 12,000 words in one day. Then again, my twin sister managed it, so why shouldn't i?
I really miss Macbeth. I starred in a school play of Macbeth last year, as Macbeth, and it was so amazing. I felt like i had done something i would be proud of forever. My Drama teacher was the first person to really belive in me, because despite the fact that I was younger than everyone else and i had only just joined the drama club, she beleived i could learn my lines and practise and do well.
Now my Drama Teacher, who's name i am not going to share, is ill and i miss her. She is reallly nice and she treats us all like adults. You can always trust her.
I am making her a Get Well Soon card. There are auditions for our next play, Romeo and Juliet, on Tuesday and i don't think i can do it without my teacher there to support me. She made me feel confident in myself last year. Now that she is ill i don't feel like i can act well at all. I am going to do my best though.
For my teahcer. I want her to be proud of me.
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